Random Post #3874892

Assalamualaikum.

Since blog ni memang dah takkan ada orang baca, so I'm going to let out everything in here. Well, today is the first day of Aidilfitri for 2014. And for a cliche reason, Hari Raya is one of the main event that usually will create a lot of memories behind it. Teringat masa aku bawa kau straight dari Pulau Pinang, sampai depan rumah untuk balik raya. Masa tu juga jadi titik mula. Aku ingat. A normal people with the normal operated mind, will not ever forget memories. Aku happy, kau happy. But yeah, we can't predict the future. And now, we are not together anymore. Well basically a year ago. 

So, that was my first serious relationship. I don't understand why certain people can move on from the past just like nothing serious has happened before. But not me. It takes a lot. And Alhamdulillah, boleh dapat pula study luar negara. I'm busy with my new life, new friends, new environment. Honestly, I'm hurt. But, lelaki. ego. Buat macam takde apa jadi. eloklah.

And the feelings start to fade away. Not because I hate you for what you've done since I'm not going to put 100% the blame on you. But because I need to make myself happy again. I can live alone, just like before we met. It's just that, aku takut. Bukan aku takut untuk mula balik, tapi aku takut ending macam ni jadi balik. But that is life, you'll meet a lot of people, you'll have to deal with a lot of character, and so on. 

Aku, tak pernah benci kau. dan aku takkan boleh benci kau. Kau pernah berpuluh kali bahagiakan aku dulu. Jadi kenapa aku kena benci kau untuk satu kesalahan kau. Kita manusia. Biasalah. Pasal move on? mari aku cerita pasal sakit gigi.

Bayangkan cinta ni macam gigi,

Kau sakit gigi, sampai berguling, demam satu badan.
Satu hari tu kau tak tahan, kau pergi klinik dan kau cabut gigi tu.
Apa kau rasa? lega.

Esoknya, apa lidah kau buat ?
tak habis habis pergi dekat tempat gigi yang kena cabut tu.
Sebab dia rasa pelik.
Benda biasa ada, tiba tiba hilang. 

Jadi,
Kau akan rasa kehilangan tu dalam suatu masa yang kita sendiri tak tahu.
Tapi, kau nak biarkan gigi tu terus buat kau sakit ?
Takkan.

Ariff. 2.23AM